>>7709 (OP)
This fetish has been a neverending source of pain for me.
>just starting uni at 17
>meet a guy who's 25 and really like him
>we live close together and take the same train in the morning
>he meets my mum who takes a different train, but still comes with me
>become travel buddies and have a single class together
>develop a crush because he's so smooth, put-together and kind
>get stuck with a giant gap in our schedules
>we start going back to my place to watch movies in the middle of the day
>during a non-teaching week we just decide to stick to the schedule and make it an all-day thing
>mum gets home and it's the first time they've really talked
>he finds it awkward because he's my friend, but my mum had me at 13, so they're not far apart age-wise and he doesn't know how to act with her
>mum assumes we're dating and treats him very warmly in her usual over-sharing over-confident way
>have to tell her we're not and she seems disappointed
>they start interacting more in the mornings and when he visits
>they have a lot to talk about and I think it's great that she likes him
>particularly because I want to start dating him
>decide I'll make a move during a movie-day
>water heater starts acting up one morning
>decide I'd rather be late than take an ice-cold shower
>mum leaves ahead of me, but I follow after 10 minutes
>walking across the bridge to the station and can see down to the platform
>they're together, holding each other and making out
>she's squeezing his arse and he has his hands on her hips
>feel like I should be angry, but just feel a little dizzy
>her train arrives and she leaves
>act like nothing happened when he tells me "Oh, I was just waiting for you and talking to your mum."
>go to class and decide today's the day
>get out and prepare for our class together when I see he's sent a message about being sick and him seeing me later for our next class
>have a morning beer at the campus tavern
>go home
>electronic lock makes a loud beeping when I open the door but it doesn't matter
>can hear these loud moans that don't sound like anyone I know and mum's at work
>hear mum's voice like she's chattering her teeth in the freezing cold "Oh f-f-f-fuck me r-r-right there!"
>her sliding door is open and see his naked arse between her legs as he fucks her prone with her head jammed into the pillows
>feel sick and anxious, but not angry
>pull away as she turns over
>she locks her legs around him as they loudly kiss and he cums
>quietly leave and just putter about for a while
>return an hour later, a bit before I should be back
>mum's home and just getting out of the shower
>instantly starts motormouthing about having a half-day and just getting home
>walk past her bedroom and can not only see the condoms on the sidetable and the wet spots on her sheets, but it still smells like sex
>go back to class and start treating him more like a boyfriend
>touch him, normalise him touching me etc.
>never tell him how I feel but still get the intimacy of a boyfriend
>masturbate to fantasies where I switch places with my mum
>eventually come home to find them talking together in the kitchen
>they come clean because she's pregnant
>get blackout drunk and ramble on messageboards about whore mothers
>pretend like I'm ok with it
>after a few months he moves in with us
>they try to quietly fuck most nights
>just quietly walk into the lounge and listen to them
>can sometimes see them if they don't close the sliding door properly or can make out his silhouette from their bedside lamp
>look at him in the shower or when he sleeps naked post-sex
>develop an intense cucking and humiliation fetish
>after the baby is born they can't have sex
>get home drunk from a night out with friends
>see him in the lounge
>try to seduce him
>he just hugs me and kisses me on the forehead before going back to bed
>masturbate with a vibrator for the first time and cum so loudly he thinks I've fallen out of bed in a drunken stupor
>let him think I have, wanting him to find me naked
>he comes in and dresses me in PJs before putting me to bed
>newfetishunlocked.mp3
>start binge drinking on the weekends and come home sloppy drunk
>intentionally put myself in compromising positions like I'm offering myself up to him
>he treats me like I'm his child and takes care of me
>eventually being a binge-drinker constantly walking on egg-shells in a two-bedroom flat with 3 adults and a baby becomes unbearable
>move out and stop drinking
>try to date but nothing lasts
>they get married and find a house together
>years later lose my job during COVID and mum insists I move back in
>the gamesroom is below their bedroom
>can hear them fucking with clarity
>when they fuck late at night still can't resist taking a bullet with me to the gamesroom to vibe to orgasm
>can hear step-dad dirty-talking through the shared vent system
>straddling a pillow covered with a towel and on the verge of orgasm
>get fucking tackled by my half-brother who woke up and thought I was going to play games without him
>scream so loudly they hear me upstairs
>split my scalp on a lego castle while trying to pull up my sweatpants and turn off the bullet
>step-dad tends to my injury, carries me back to bed and stays with me a while to make sure I don't have a concussion
>realise we were both on the verge of orgasm moments ago and get kind of flirty
>he just doesn't respond and wishes me a good night's rest
>die of shame
>pay new landlord an ungodly amount just to leave as soon as possible
My life is nothing but self-inflicted suffering.